Today was just one of those days. It was a very boring day today...I seem to do more reading than working lately. I know most people would think that this would be wonderful, but it actually worries me. Since they opened the second site for our account the other site has grown, while my site has just dwindled. It makes me worry about my job security. While I honestly do not plan on being there after April, I don't want to be out of work before this. I'd rather leave on my own terms, rather than be laid off. I know that other people are thinking the same thing.
On another note, I'm really trying to process and deal with everyone moving away. I'm trying like hell to be as supportive as I know how to be. I feel kind of weird writing about this here because I know Ginger reads my blog (hi Ginger!) but I just feel like I need to. I'm super happy for her and Gilligan, but at the same time it really sucks. I know that the day they leave will be here before long.
I really wish I was better with this sort of thing. It makes me feel like I'm emotionally young sometimes. I know it's bothering other people...but I feel like I'm having a harder time dealing with this than most. I just need to grow the hell up, people move away right?
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Updating....Updating....
So another week has come and gone. I'm starting to deal a little better with the thought of people moving away. It still makes me tear up from time to time, but I think i'm getting better. Ginger is on her way to the other site for a week, and Gilligan went with her so they can work on finding an apartment or house.
I'm starting to see how it's going to be when everyone is gone. Ginger and Gilligan are the only two of the people from the group that we hang out with one on one with any regularity. I've been trying to not spend as much time with Ginger as I used to. She was feeling a bit smothered I think. It doesn't mean that I'm not going to hang out with her at all, we have a wedding to plan after all! I'm just going to give her some space, maybe just hang out one or two nights a week.
On another note, I have GOT to get my lazy butt back to the gym. I haven't been since we went to Oklahoma. No matter what, I don't care how cold it is...I WILL be going first thing tomorrow. I cannot let all my hard work go to waste.
I'm starting to see how it's going to be when everyone is gone. Ginger and Gilligan are the only two of the people from the group that we hang out with one on one with any regularity. I've been trying to not spend as much time with Ginger as I used to. She was feeling a bit smothered I think. It doesn't mean that I'm not going to hang out with her at all, we have a wedding to plan after all! I'm just going to give her some space, maybe just hang out one or two nights a week.
On another note, I have GOT to get my lazy butt back to the gym. I haven't been since we went to Oklahoma. No matter what, I don't care how cold it is...I WILL be going first thing tomorrow. I cannot let all my hard work go to waste.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
It's my first time!
So, it was suggested to me by my friend Ginger that I should start blogging. Apparently she's a little worried about me, and how I'm going to be able to cope after she moves away. I'm going to admit the thought of that sucks big time, but it's not just her that's moving away. Her hubby is my fiancee's best friend and our friend Dildo Daggins is moving with them as well.
I guess before I get too far into what is going on now and in the near future, I guess I should put down a little about me, just in case the random person comes along to my blog.
I'm Teal, which is obviously not my real name....actually none of the names I use will be real. If that's not obvious y'all must think my friends and I have some REALLY interesting names! Well, I'm engaged to the most wonderful guy in the world, we'll call him Aero (yes Ginger I'm stealing your names, sorry!) I'm really excited about the upcoming wedding...it's in just over three months!
I never thought I would get married again, since my first marriage was so horrible. That was a very dark time in my life, as my ex was extremely abusive. I swore I would never get married again, but then I met Aero. I knew him for about two years before we even met! We met online, and actually Ginger's husband introduced us. I was so nervous when we decided to meet, but it was all worth it. I swear, when he walked in the door, it's as if the entire universe lined up perfectly at that just second. I knew right then and there that he was the man I was going to marry, and three months later I was moving across the country to be with him!
Fast forward to today. I've been here for almost a year, and I can honestly say this is probably the happiest I have ever been in my life. I have a wonderful man by my side and the greatest friends you could ever possibly ask for.
I think that's why I'm having such a hard time with everyone moving away. It's really hard for me to trust people, because of things that happened in my past. It's actually really scary because I've never let anyone in like I have these guys. I learned at a very young age that when you let someone in, and get close to you there were only two outcomes. They would either end up completely back stabbing you, using everything they learned about you against you....inflicting more pain that you can imagine. Or, they just leave.
I know in my heart that Dildo, Ginger, and Gilligan will never do that to me, and that just because they are leaving it doesn't mean they are never going to talk to me again...hell they are all in my wedding in some way! It's just that some things are hard to work through. I've tried to explain this to Ginger, but I can never seem to find the words. I always end up crying, which I know makes her uncomfortable. I'm going to give her the link to this, so maybe she'll be able to understand it a little better now.
I know it sounds like I'm going to be all alone, but I'm really not. I'm going to have Aero, Eleven, and CPK. It's just going to be hard with the other half of our gang like 600 miles away. Well on the bright side, I'm going to see Ginger on our birthday weekend...that's also the weekend that we're doing my bachelorette party. Yeah, that's going to be a blast!
Ok, I think that's long enough for my first blog. I'm going to be hopefully updating this often. I need a place to put my thoughts and feelings instead of leaving them bottled up inside. According to Ginger and Aero that isn't exactly healthy. >.>
I guess before I get too far into what is going on now and in the near future, I guess I should put down a little about me, just in case the random person comes along to my blog.
I'm Teal, which is obviously not my real name....actually none of the names I use will be real. If that's not obvious y'all must think my friends and I have some REALLY interesting names! Well, I'm engaged to the most wonderful guy in the world, we'll call him Aero (yes Ginger I'm stealing your names, sorry!) I'm really excited about the upcoming wedding...it's in just over three months!
I never thought I would get married again, since my first marriage was so horrible. That was a very dark time in my life, as my ex was extremely abusive. I swore I would never get married again, but then I met Aero. I knew him for about two years before we even met! We met online, and actually Ginger's husband introduced us. I was so nervous when we decided to meet, but it was all worth it. I swear, when he walked in the door, it's as if the entire universe lined up perfectly at that just second. I knew right then and there that he was the man I was going to marry, and three months later I was moving across the country to be with him!
Fast forward to today. I've been here for almost a year, and I can honestly say this is probably the happiest I have ever been in my life. I have a wonderful man by my side and the greatest friends you could ever possibly ask for.
I think that's why I'm having such a hard time with everyone moving away. It's really hard for me to trust people, because of things that happened in my past. It's actually really scary because I've never let anyone in like I have these guys. I learned at a very young age that when you let someone in, and get close to you there were only two outcomes. They would either end up completely back stabbing you, using everything they learned about you against you....inflicting more pain that you can imagine. Or, they just leave.
I know in my heart that Dildo, Ginger, and Gilligan will never do that to me, and that just because they are leaving it doesn't mean they are never going to talk to me again...hell they are all in my wedding in some way! It's just that some things are hard to work through. I've tried to explain this to Ginger, but I can never seem to find the words. I always end up crying, which I know makes her uncomfortable. I'm going to give her the link to this, so maybe she'll be able to understand it a little better now.
I know it sounds like I'm going to be all alone, but I'm really not. I'm going to have Aero, Eleven, and CPK. It's just going to be hard with the other half of our gang like 600 miles away. Well on the bright side, I'm going to see Ginger on our birthday weekend...that's also the weekend that we're doing my bachelorette party. Yeah, that's going to be a blast!
Ok, I think that's long enough for my first blog. I'm going to be hopefully updating this often. I need a place to put my thoughts and feelings instead of leaving them bottled up inside. According to Ginger and Aero that isn't exactly healthy. >.>
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